Wow, its been awhile. It’s been a long while since I felt this good. I feel like if I say those words that I will jinx myself. But, I am saying those words. I am setting those words out in the universe because it is time that I own them.
I need to understand that meds do indeed work and I need to understand that therapy does indeed work. So why am I so surprised I am feeling good? I have been in therapy and on meds for a year now. We had to spend some time “tweaking” meds, but we are finally there. My head does not feel “cloudy and cluttered” but peaceful and like I can think problems through. I feel that when I am with my service dog, my anxiety does not go into overdrive.
How does my service dog help me?
First, I absolutely adore this dog. She is amazing, and she is a pit. Well, pit mix? Who knows how much pit is in her. She needs a DNA test. But I got her from the shelter. I saved her life, now she is saving mine.
Now for her tasks:
- She wakes me when I have night terrors or asthma attacks as I sleep. She uses her paw to wake me up. She has already done this a number of times.
- She goes with me to public places to keep me calm and make sure there is no one around that would send me into a panic attack.
- She notifies me if she sees the symptoms of a panic attack. She is in the process of learning where my medication is so she will be able to bring it to me. (She is taking the rest of this week off from training because she had surgery on Wednesday.)
- She is learning to go around corners before me and to sit if it is safe and to come back if it is not.
So she is a good girl and she has a high list of tasks to perform. But, she can perform them. I know she can.
You notice, I don’t take enough pictures of her. LOL She gets at least one or two a day. LOL She is just so darn pretty.
Anyway, back to me. I am trying to eat better. I am also trying to get more exercise in between doctors appointments and my knees and ankles acting up. So praying that I get relief sometime soon. I would love to be able to say the pain is gone and I am walking my 5+ miles again, but that will come soon. Just got to give it time.