Let’s be honest. Miscarriage sucks. You never completely heal. If you believe that what you are carrying is a baby, when you miscarry your child, you believe your child died. There is no other way to think about it. So every year, you mourn on the day that you child…
The Life & Death of Taylor Lee
For my Taylor Lee, I’m standing here. For my Taylor Lee, I’m stripping my walls down. For my Taylor Lee, I am speaking THE truth. April 16, 2016, approximately 2:30 p.m. After a peaceful morning at home, Candy was still sitting on my stomach licking it. I always heard animals…
Taylor Lee
Taylor Lee is a poem I wrote dedicated to my beautiful daughter who I never got to hold. I may have carried you a short time,But you taught more than anyone. You taught me love.A mother’s love.You gave me a glimpseOf how my mom loves me. You taught me pain.A…
Lord, help. I’ve lost all motivation in the world
Well, we are officially entering the third month of the year and I have lost all motivation to work on my weight loss goals this year. I don’t know why. I want the end goal. I need the end result more than I need anything else in the world. But,…
Medical knowledge is power! Use it!
I love doctors. I think most doctors have the power and desire to help you. However, there are a few like my former OB in Montgomery, AL, who I truly believe had a desire to do harm. I don’t believe he had a desire to help my husband and I…
Unusual sources of therapy for depression, anxiety, PTSD
Yesterday I was at the hospital for my medication management appointment. During my appointment, I received some news that upset me a little bit. I left the appointment quite upset and I knew that I had a three-hour drive home. If I did not change my mindset, I knew my…
Is Healing After Trauma Counseling Possible?
You know I went into the idea of trauma counseling that I would speak the words to the therapist and the pain of the incident would be gone. Well, I’m going to tell you, the pain of my rape is still here. Matter of fact, I deal with it more….
It took more courage to wake up
“Sometimes even to live is an act of courage.”― Lucius Annaeus Seneca This post is going to be more real than anything I have ever posted on this blog. It is later than I wanted to post it, but I needed to go through things before I posted it. I needed…
Life happens and then you smile
So much has happened that I haven’t blogged about that I will. But, I really want to blog about this past weekend month. This past month was just what I needed. It happened at just the right time and just the place. It filled my heart. After over a year,…
Ah, celebrating your joys while grieving alone in our silence
Infertility. Miscarriage. Stillbirth. Taboo Subjects. The World Health Organization estimates that 1 out of 6 people suffer from infertility now. If that number was not astonishing enough, 26 percent of all pregnancies end in miscarriage before 20 weeks of gestation, according to the American College of Obstetricians and Gynecologists. Finally,…